..bEfore BosS coMing..

Errr...My boss havn't come..Errr...So better wriTe this faster..Errr...But now too gan cheong N donno wat shud I write..Err...EERr... thaNx for everyone for Spamming my bloG..YEAHYEAH!! Hehe..noTcute really daI seK..waha..So to Memo n lego..Keep it On..Aikss..

Err..Err...donNO wat to do without online..My super absent until this thursday also..
So would be no work passed to me. Aikkss..pretendin busy later...>.<"

Errr..This Wednesday will be OFf..Happy National day!~ Hmmm..thinkin of how to pass the day..Sleepin?Walkin Around? Not sure..MAyb findin someone!..

Tonite will yumcha with somebody lo. Hope I wont suddenly ffk ler..

Today my eyes got bitbit problem..watery eyes..charm lo.Now can't see the monitor clearly..Heee...Errr...ERr....So rush, making my brain blank for now!

Anyway, I will try update my blog!! Miss u all my frenzz....

Aikks..when onli she comes ler?

..CaNt oNLine..

whuah!! Jz now my super told me that Next week our lady boss will be at this office. He warned me n Gordon to becareful, don ever let her find out that we are chatting or surfing net. If not, she will most probably cut off our connection, n our training status will be dangerous.

Aikkss..So next week, my blog will hardly updated. N my YM will be offline for whole week. Can't chat with u guys dy..

So hope our lady boss jz stay here for one week -shh!-

God Bless Me..Pa PA..

Oh yea..this Wednesday no work. Hurray!~ Resting day!~ ...

-continue work seng-

..ReView mY bAd AttiTudE..

I recently received one sms from one of my sweet fren. She asked me to tell her honestly about her bad attitude, behaviour and everything lo. Coz she said she wanted to erase all her bad behaviors from her life and become a better gal. This is actually a good idea by asking frens around for thier opinion on ourselves.

So now, I wish to listen to all of my frens who read this blog..Plz feel free to write down inside the comment, what bad habits that I hav which annoyed u guys. Tell me the truth then onli I can try my best to change it to become a person which has better personalities.

I need ur help! I wont scold U .. hehhe! If this is really true..:P

To someone sweet enuff who gav me this idea, I would like to tell u that, U are really change a lot and I did like u more than last time. This is true and I hope U will be as sweet as U are..

..tOdaY wiThouT GorDon..

Today Gordon was going to UTM with one engineer. Yesterday he told me that, he needed to apart from his house at 530am..Pity!! Hope his work can faster finish and go back home by today lo. If not, he need to overnite there..Pity x 2!

Hmm..since I hav finished my work yesterday, so now I jz needed to wait my super checking my work. Hopefully no errors, if not, need to redo n can't blog here. This morning after reach my office, I opened YM n started to chat. Long time didn't chat so much with everyone lo.

Eason said,
"I don wan read ur blog dy. Coz U no write anything bout me. " >.<"
Heheee...Now I did write ler..U are the 1st. Happy? Hee..

Lego said,
"Wah! I wan meet leng chai also.
Wah! I wan go melacca n take photo with notcute's doggie n froggie!"
Hehe..Yeah, I took with froggie dy! N after vote, I m Cuter than froggie with one vote more! Then notcute complained that NOT FAIR since I vote myself but froggie can't! >.<"

ZhaZha said,
"Ehh..Don so rude. Y ur YM status put 'SOB'! ?? !"
Err...'sob=cry' actually not the answer for 2 of my frens. One is zhazha..another one is Memo! thier answer is the same! 'SOB = Son Of the BitCH' ! OH my God!!!
Zhazha said again,
"I Tot u scold 'SOB' inside every of ur posts in ur blog!"
-sobsob- hahahaha!! Funniest thing!

Memo said,
"Wah! ur 'putocaryn' in GB so high level dy. Who play for u one ??"
Eee??At 1st, I was confused since I didn't play GB for quite a long time. Somemore last time I remember i put 'PutoCy' instead of 'putocaryn'..Then after asking my guild master,Lego..then onli I realize that, Oo..I changed my nick last time n that one is my 1st account! Hehe..blur time I hav. Anyway, the newest version of GB i havn't touched before. Eason told me that got offline de GB, but I think that one quite dull coz playing ownself is boring!..

NotCute said,
"I so charm. LAst nite rushing the basic law assignment until 3 am onli reach home. Sleep not enuff but still need to wake up to attend class. So Now wanna go sleep dy!"
Haha..pity! He n other 3 frens sure having panda's eyes this morning. Me too..can't sleep coz the stupid Disco held beside my room!

Heee..this morning chat with 5 of them. Now Lego busy working. Can't chat much to her lo. Aikkss...Tonite I will going to MidValley. Yeah, Again! Need to buy present for someone I lovlovlov the most..Hehe..His bday ler..But still no Idea wat present is nice. Any idea? Wat kind of present is most suitable for daddy ??

So tonite will meet someone that I kept ffk these days. Sorry, I hope u understand lar. Everytime after going back, raining mar. Then I was so lazy go out n better sleep on my bed, covered myself with warmwarm blanket, hugging my lovin BAby n... then oinkoink! So nice!~ Hehe..Okay la..Tonite We go eat NAndos yeah~ hehe..

Weird post lar..coz Gordon not here..everything weird! haha

..DisCo iN mY hOuse..

"BOm BOm BoMBOm!! LAaa.~~"

AikkSs..another disco nite! Did U been to Disco before? I've been there Once 2 years ago, the PUnk n ROck MusiC are so LOUD until I became temporary deaf after I left the place. Although some of my frens are so enjoying the environment of DIsco, I jz can't stand the Superb Loud music that will cause me real deaf if I stay there one second longer.

Now U jz imagine,when U are sleeping and dreaming bout ur dream guy/gal/ watever U lov..Suddenly "BoMBOmBoom...LAa!~~YEaH!~" with a almost highest level of speaker volume, jz as loud as the music inside DiscO..will U still continue ur dream? oR Ur dream will suddenly become NItemare? For me, I will kicked by Uncle Chow and awake!!

IT was 11 o'clock at nite! okay, I admitted that I slept quite early these days, coz need to wake up early in the morning ma. It was so late at nite N I think all the babies and children were asleep. Pity them if really awoke by these scary high volume music. Pity their mom n the maids who need to sacrify thier sleepin time, comforting their babies to oinkoink..PIty..

So where the music come from? Aikks..from Lansi Kia's room. Actually I was curious wat happen to him. This week everynite he will like abnormal, when bath He shouted so loud..erhhmm..expressing his working stress? No idea. Then when the song come to a sad part, He will also sing it with his nice voice..I can listen so clearly from my room. errhhmm..Missing somebody? No idea also. I not dare to ask, since Lansi Kia nvr talk to me. So I better stay inside my room, try my best to get used to his song! Oh yea, Mayb he jz bought a new sub-woofer n show-off-ing!

Sometime really make me mad..especially when I was sleeping. Actually if he close his room's door, then the sound will be softer and wont affect my sleep. But, He jz loves to leave his door open wide! KisiAo lar! hoW can liddat? >.<" Then when I was listening to my songs, he can suddenly open his song until the volume covered my song..Haizz..

Yesterday, I behtong liao. I wanted to fight with him..with my old speaker. I open until largest volume that enuff to cover his volume, then I close my ear! hahaHa..Sorry for auntie uncle babies n children. I was jz revenge for u gUys! Aha, I pretend like nothing leave my door openwide, then walked downstair n chat with So Chai. So Chai knew about my plan and willing to support me! Fuiyo! haHa. LUckily my cousin havn't back home. Hehe..After a while, "BomBOMbom" was stopped! We can onli listen to my song! So I pretend like nothing again, walked upstair and went into my room n closed my door. I lower down my volume..Feeling so peace! No more Disco..Feeling relieve.

So I switched off my light and prepared to sleep! Hmm...lovely nite..

*After 10 minutes I went to sleep*

"BOM BOM Bom!! LAalaA~"

Oh my God!!!

..CuTe gUy..

Yesterday my Super wan me go to IKEa buy computer tables. 5 tAbles...terrible. Then becoz the SS need to take the money from bank, so at last, I no need go yesterday. So today I tot I need to driv to IKEA. HMm..I am quite fed up being driver or wat lar..But I am so excited also becoz I Wish to go IKEA for long time ady..FrenchToast ar, when onli U wanna bring me go? -blink-

Okay, before driv to office this morning, I went to pump petrol. Not bad, I saw one cute guy..He wanted to pump petrol for his WAJA also..His car was parked beside mine. At first, I didn't notice him. Coz everytime I reach petrol station, I will kelam-kabut. Donno Y, mayb read too much forwarded mail like "Danger Gals! When U alone at Petrol station"..Errr...somesort like that >.<" Then everytime I will keep remind myself to lock the door before I go to pay money. Haha..I will become nervous without any other reason.Weird hugh? haha..mumblin again. -blushed-

So as usual, I put all my attention to my car and after I make sure I locked all the doors, I faster went to pay the money. Now the interesting thing happened, Err..After paying the money, I turned myself too fast n I bumped into someone! Who? That cute guy la..of coz. n Of coz i didn't fell down since we were jz having a slight collision. I looked at him then blushed. He was SO cute, like baby. He laughed me..-blushed-

"Sorry" then I walked towards my car. Y he got that face? If my face like him, then I'm sure notcute will admit I'm cuter than him. haha..Dreaming~ As usual again, I tried to open the lid of fuel tank. Aikks..It was too tight. N I started nervous dy, coz I'll be late later. I used 2 hands together also can't help.

"Errmm..Need my help?" Wahh..I looked into his hakchiu..Cute guy offering help ler. Haha..He gav me his Cute smile again, quite sweet, if I were a guy, I will become gay n chase him! -dreaming- Err..weird, Y he can open the lid jz in a second? He sure thinkin that I'm weak instead I'm definitely NOT. He helped me to put the "pistol" -I used to cal it 'gun'- inside the fuel tank too. So helpful hugh..Haiizz..-blushed- He sure think that how useless this gal is..stil wan to driv car..Haiizz..

I looked at him with a polite smile."Thanx"..another stupid smile. I was feeling so inferior standing beside him. He is cuter. Haiz. Can't stand..Haha..He started to talk while waiting,
"Later go to school ar?"
"Eerrr...No,Workin"
"HUGH!! U working now ar? Wat's ur age oo?"
"Errr..Trainin actually"
"Ooo..No wonder. Haha.."
"Haa....u?"
"Working LO!"
"Hugh!! U working liao ar? Wat's ur age oo?" -bluek..imitating him-
"Hahaa...ME? So old liao!"
Aikk..so old still looked so CUTe! . I wanna answer this actually. But not dare >.<"
So, after that, we say "ByeBye" and left!

Ohyeah, need to mention one thing..hehe..Normally guys who like to wear hak chiu hor, thier eyes mostly not so nice. But, before he leaves, he took off his hak chiu and I can see his small but attractiv eyes. Waw..No more cute, is quite attractiv. Not bad hugh, having the luck to meet someone like this.

Anyway, I don think we hav 2nd chance to meet each other. Thanx to him, coz i'm not late today. Hehe...Cute gUy hugh~

..PoOr GorDon..

Wah..Long time no updated my blog..This week I was flooded with a bunch of workloads. Suddenly both of us asked to hav a meeting with SK n Super, then our works that we did last time were 'complained' -in a polite tone @ can use 'discuss'- got alot of shiEt need to modify and replace with a better solution. Then we were asked to seperate the works and solved it as fast as possible. But, at last, Gordon did it all since SK shared the project to Gordon's share doc.

In the meantime, my SUPER passed me another project that i followed last week. Pretty much of modification, so I can't lend up my hand to Gordon altho I wish to. Sorrie guy. He is now still concentrating the project. Now i finished mine, I think. But I still couldn't help Gordon becoz last time my Super told me that, SK doesn't wan that project did seperately becoz there will be some problem when need to combine it.So I really donno how to offer my help.

Errm, but I hav confidence to him, since he is a Pro GUy~ especially crazy in LINUx hugh! .. Err...Gordon, do u feel there is one strong POWER coming from ur back supportin U? Aikss..Poor guy..

..MooNLight..

Tonite...The sky was dark..NO stars around..Miss Moon was so lonely hanging above the sky..So round and Light that took all my attention..Miss Moon looked so beautiful and gorgeous as it was surrounded by softy clouds..The clouds seem to be protectin Miss Moon from any harms and dangers...

From far, from the earth, from my car..I looked into the Moon..I can feel the loneliness..However, I was so fortunate to hav alots of frens that surrounded me, supporting me, protecting me... When think about this, all my strength and confidence hav returned back to me..Bringing me to a happiness and meaningful life.

Jz now finally ate my favourite Maggie Basah at VJN...hahaha..So satisfied..Phew!~ Can't talk much with my friends that I long time didn't meet..Becoz they were too far from me..We arranged 5 tables in a line..gonggong arrangement also..hahah..hardly talk to each other lar..So we ended up chitchat-ing and BullshiEt-ing with frens that sat near to each other..haha..Quite happy. Long time didn't hav this kinda of gathering liao.

Anyway, tomolo I will going back to Hometown to meet my family..So miss them. So, I will coming back to Melacca again at 17th of Sept..Which is next next next week..Is it? >.<" HAhaa..Hope that I will having a delightful time then...

Aikkss..End of this post 1st. Err..Try to catch up the MoonLIght. It does giv u a different feeling tonite. -The return of VampiRe!- Hahaha...

..aNotHer FrieNdsHip..

I'm now at Melacca. Last nite I have done a decision that I'm not so confidence whether I will regret soon or not. There is one problem kept flowing inside my brain and I hav taken most of my times thinkin of it again and again. I was forcing myself to come out a solution which really against my will. Deep inside my heart, I really can't accept the truth that bombed me hardly last saturday.

However, the decision hav made finally and mayb this is a better solution for both of us. Everything will be fine I think, in the future. I know that U n I are having the same feelin, although U nvr told me that..But i can see it from ur eyes and expression. It does take each of us a lot of time to settle down this problem.

Actually, Last nite I was hardly to sleep after the decision. Alot of last time memory floating inside my mind, got sweet, got sour...But when I woke up today, I was feeling better. I know I can't loose U..As a Friend, as someone I think is worth to become friend forever. U promise me that U will never ignore me, This is the only promise U MUST keep..>.<"

I will appreciate our friendship forever, mayb we can become a close frens..hehehe..cheer up yeah..Good luck in ur exam. Take care always..

..Half And An hOur eAtinG McDonaLd..

LAst Saturday, I did a stupId and senseless thing that I had ever did. I was having my Longest fastfood Dinner at McDonald which near the GSC in MidValley jz becoz I need to wait one buddy FonggOng. >.<"

As usual, I ordered my favourite set, Chicken McNugget set. McDonald was full of couples, families, friends, enemies >.<" Errmm..n also single ..like me. There is no more seats available downstair, So i hav to climb upstair to find a seat. Luckily, there is one seat is available. I was so relieved and sat down..Hmm..looked into my watch, Aikks..another 2 hours needed.

Drinking the COKE i LOV the most, eAting the fries one by one..n also the nuggets. My motion was so slow..Actually, I was not so get used to eat alone. Quite feeling awkward, nobody to speak to, nobody to scold, nobody to tease or watever. If alone, wat I can do is jz keeping my eyes opened, started to scan around for any targets loo. Yeah, that day was Saturday, And I found quite a lot of attractive gals who wear until so sexy, so cute, so pretty, so eye-catchin. Around them are those admirers, I think.

Then I saw one couple, Guy was tall and quite handsome and the gurl was short but cute and pretty enough with fair skin. They were so outstanding and 'dang dui' loo..hAha..jealous-nya..-blushed-

'tik tok tik tok' Mr. Time Grandpa is walking so slow..I hav finished half of my food but the time was jz passed half an hour..Boringz neh.. Those ppl who having their meal during the same time were leaving dy, before leave, I can feel that they were looking at me suspiciously. Y i eat so slow? ....Since the time passed like turtle, I slow down my motion again..Haiizz.. BUDdy..see..I treat U so nice.

After a while, there were 2 Malay guys sitting in front of my seat, not same table i mean. They were acting so weird, Givin me one strange feelin. MYGOD..Are they...GAY Couple?? -OPpss- I'm not so sure, so I kept on peeping them. One of the Malay guy looks tough n strong, wearing leather jacket, leather shoes. >.<" I think he is 'guy' in relation. Juz guess. Then the 'gurl' is wearing a long sleeve shirt which like maomao n softsoft one. 'She' always smiled to 'Him' sweetly. I can't see 'his' expression becoz 'His' back was facing me. Haha..but hugh, 'She' always touched 'His' hand once a while n when 'she' laughed,'she' used 'her' hand to close her big mouth like other gurls doin. Wow..Interesting! My mood comin back n I was like watching a 1 hour movie..haha..

A half and an hour McDonald was quite silly is it? But I did see alot of interesting things that we seldom pay attention to them. I saw many sweet couples, happy families with daddy mummy and thier pampered children, young gals and guys who enjoying thier life before they step into business world, some women and guys who relaxing themselves after whole week working, some couples who were argueing, fat lanzha-ing, cold-war-ing, and many other types.

Finally, I saw my Buddy..Another working Buddy..Pity lo!~

..The reason I feLt dizZy..

I was sick...I think most probably is becoz of thiS Tuesday............

This Tuesday, I was workin at HeadQuarters of my company. Me, Gordon n my supervisor were configurin one BIG machine at the workshop which at downstair of HQ building..errmm..not that HUGE lah..hahaha..okay..The environment of the workshop is so bad, filled with dirt and I'm sure I hav breath in lots of secondhand smoke -some engineers are smoking- Luckily the compound is large enuff for air circulation, if not, i THink i will fainted!

So, We linked the machine to a computer and started our configuration. The computer were placed in front of the machine and for sure, 3 of us were sittin infront of the computer. The machine is quite complex in structure, So i can't explain it here. BUt there is one part of the machine is a L-shape cylinder attached to a turbine. When the machine is ON, the water will went thru the L-shape cylinder in high speed and pressure! Actually I was quite scare bout that machine, scared that it will explode or wat lah when the machine was ON and sounded loudly!

The engineer who build this machine was not around, so My supervisor stood up and switched on the machine.."yi.....YIIII!!!!" The sound of the machine was become gradually Louder and I can see the water so EXcited flow into the L-shape cylinder with superb Speed!! My eyes were rollin bigger n bigger..

"PAk! SHHHAa~~~"

OH MY GOD!!! wat is that sound? DAMN...the cylinder was not broken, in fact, it was loosing from its position and the water pouring out and HIT me!!!!!!!! Although I was so 'seng muk', quickly jumped away from my place, but the HIGH pressure water is much more faster than me..At last, HAlf of my clothes soaked in wet! whuah ... MY shirt, my slack, my shoes, my hair, my face, all HALFly Wet!! Luckily I was wearing black shirt. HAizzz... I was laughed by other, my super n GOrdon were saved becoz I'm the one who sat near that cylinder. Ohyeah, the computer also kena..Hehe.

I don hav towel..Wat I can do is 'hang' myself under the fan..Haizz..so pity me..I think I got cold after this..Becoz I was actually tremblin but nobody noticed. Haizz..If i was a lenglui, sure I can going back home after taht incident. -sighed-

The time passed so fast..finally can fonggong lo. But, I was shocked by another loud sound, THUnder! OhOH my GOddyy...Storm is coming.. The lightning was so excited..When I drove back to TPM office along with Gordon and my cuTe supervisor, I can see the lightning struck! Geli!! Before I reached home, the rain was pouring heavily. Shiet! AGain, I forgot to put back my umbrella inside my car. Wat to do wor..I was running back to my house from my parking place. The rain was so cruel, instead of sympathize me, it was becoming heavier n heavier. My clothes all wet and so hard to run. whhuuuu!~~ pity!!

After bathin, I was running nose..I was dizzy...until noW...still dIzzY..

..I spRaiN mY hAnd..

whuAhh!! I sprained my stupid hand..Now when i was typing, I can feel the pain. "How u sprain ur hand?" Aikkss..Donno how to answer. Mayb when i was a like pig sleeping that time sprained it gua..Not so sure. Luckily when drivin, my hand didn't hav much pain. ^ ^

Errmm...Y i write this post ah? ..hahaha...Jz wan to tell u all ...

"I SPRAIN MY HAND! "

-sob sob-

Hahahaaaa...okay..a bit not normal today..heHehe...altho i sprain my hand, I stil can chat lah..E heee.. :P

HUngry now also..myGod..whole post crappin >.<"

..WheRe m I?..

Where m i where m i? This morning when I stepped out from my house, I was shocked when I felt the hazey air..The buildings are all covered by heavy haze and I was choking! I can felt bitter in my eyes n 'tears' come out. Our country is facing serious haze problem and it is so time consumin for the haze to clear.. N it did threaten our life.

This morning when i walked to my car, I heard a small kid yelling, "Whuah,Mummy! We are at geNting!ColdCold lar~ BaoBao!" >.<" yeah..the surrounding jz like at Genting, COld + 'Hazey' .. that kid was so happy n yellin again n again..haaa..For me, it look like heaVen >.<"

Haha..anyway, this is the post i wrote at the last 15 minutes before I go back..
Hope the haze will gone as soon as possible .. haiizz..

Drink more water oo..n NO OUTDOOR ACTIVITY plzz... take cAre everyone

..It mAke me ScReaM!..

"Dii dii diiii.."Errmm..stupid alarm. -yawned- Aiyo...still so early..650am. -slept back-

"Dii dii diiii..Didi dii.." Hugh..again..>.<" looked into the clock! OhMY! It was 745am. Like lightning strikin my whole body,I Jumped up from my bed! I grabbed all my stuff n rushed to my bathroom again. This time, there is no one fight for the bathroom dy, becoz So Chai moved to downstair while those 2 lougongloupo moved out dy. Lookin into the mirror, eee..can't see clearly my face. Ahaa..sure lah.NO wearin spec lah..Okayokay..hehe..enuff crappin!

Hmm..I still able to see one creature climbin on the wall.IT was so Ugly! Yerr.. Eiak.. Who cares..So, when I wanna brush my teeth, that stupid creature JUMPED onto my HAND!!! Indeed, it was slipped from the slippery wall. That creature was COLD n geli..I was like "AHRGGG~!!!!!SHIeT!", Yeah, I did say Shiet! I screamed loudly,really loud until I heard SoChai ran up n knocked my bathroom door,"HEy, Wat happen inside?" .......-blushed-

Hugh, wat creature is that? We called it house lizard aka GECKO!! Hehe..let me think of someone who called 'gecko' also last time..Sh~ don reveal his/her name k? if not, I would be killed! hahahaha...Of course, He/she NOt uGLY!! ..hehehe..-blushed-

So, at last, I was late..-sighed-

..nEw mOod neW liFe..

There is one time my frenz come n ask me,"Where's ur blog?","Y delete?"...Hmm..I answered all of them like "I deleted it dy." In fact, I jz change the name of my address by adding 'cy' right behind 'dreamybubble'..It is becoz I'm not really wanna loose all my posts. This morning, I suddenly felt that, I don wan to hide this anymore. I know my frens will worry if read my moody post, I also know that they will asking me wat had happened n I will be silent without answering all these questions. I was once so tired to explain everything, feelin that this is my blog n I hav the right to write out all my feelin. Some are agreed with me, but some saying that 'U shudn't write those moody post n make us worry since u don wan to tell wat happening'...Therefore, last friday, I hide my blogs..

During the weekends, I was going back hometown. I was thinkin is that a good choice for me to hide my blogs from all my frens? Hmm..finally I've come out a solution. Hehee..I will continue my blog! Sorry for the lies..I know u guys are considerable n will understand Y i did that.

I still hoping u guys will drop by n read my blog as last time. I need u guys. I need friends. N u are all my dear frens who will always bugging me. Hehe.. Jl, sorry for last time. I know I was wrong sometime, but I'm really appreciate our 3-year-old friendship. Thanx for alwiz be my side..- blushed -

..I ChangeD..

I changEd alot.I became another gal that I was totally infamiliar with. I was an emotional gal and recently I do allow my emotional took control over my soul. I no more flirtin around OR joking n crappin with my Frens like nobody business. No mOre! Suddenly I found myself hardly breathe. This whole week, after work, I straight away going back home, close myself inside my bedroom..I need a small space to think Wat actually I need the MOst now. I loose all my moods to go out having dinner, yumcha or hanging around at nite.

I was so tired. I was so tired to force myself to be happy while I was in fact deeply depressed. I was so tired to ask my frens NO need to worry about me ALTHO I knew that they are concernin me sincerely. I was so tired to pretend myself like 'I'm alrite' instead I'm NOT.

I started to close my heart. I scared to be hurt. I scared to be pampered. I scared Someday somewhere I will lose my last and the only braveness and LOVe. I started to hesitated every words that come out from others' mouth, I was now hardly believ anyone except my dearest family members.

I can't sleep well for whole week. Lyin on the bed, straing at the ceilin, my brain was jz blank. I was once asking myself, Wat actually going ON, Wat actually I wan. Yeah, it seem to be an easy question, But i can't find a single answer for that.

Now I seldom chatting in YM. Hardly to make up myself to joke with my frens. I don't really hope every chat will end with an unpleasant feelin. I admitted that I seem cool n serious in every conversation recently. Sometimes will even ended up like arguein. My mood really too bad. I know i need to cheer up, as I always tell my frens '既然伤心也是一天，快乐也是一天，为什么不快快乐乐过一天？' Yeah..easy to say, when really wan to work this out, IT was so darn hard!

I need TIme! I need Time to think wat actually happen these days, Why these all things jz happen in my life. At the end, It mayb a SwEet endin, or perhaps a bitter one. I DO hope I can get the ANSWER soon. I don want to hear any lie. I don wan to be hide anything from anyone. This really HURT. I rather to get a TRUTH !

Plz tell me..

..10 thiNg mY frEnz coMmeNt oN mE..

Following are the 10 things my frenz keep complaining on me. There are more out of these 10 things as these special 10 are commented by not onli one frenz!! Haiizz..let see..

Situation 1: "Cy arr..How come u walk so fast when shopping? Like there is someone else chasing U. I see u walk aneh kin..then i also speed up my pace. Who's know U speeding up too..."

Errr..really ah? >.<" Paise..will slow down next time! Remind me if I "run" during Shoppin .. Oh my goD!

Situation 2: "Cy arr..Is it becoz the accident, so U now driV so sLow liKe turtle ah *blink* "

Mayb..But not slow like turtle lah..haHa..still remember last time Ezriq said I driv like Montoya..whuahaha..In fact, that accident does make it a reason I driv "more carefully" nowadays. But I think this is not a bad thing for me.. Hee..Err..At least my frens No more feeling dizzy when I m the driver.-blushed-

Situation 3: "Hey..Don always gap chai gap lui. Watch ur steps!" -slapped my head-

Hehee..'If there are lengChai n lengLui in front, Don ever ignore them! Clean up ur ngan si(eyes shiet) n enjoy ur peepin! Make urself feelin fresh and Giv face to them!' Yeahyeah..Agree?? *blink blink* For me, i jz gap lah..Wont do any stupid thing like approach them! -'diu sai ga' if kena reject-

Situation 4: "Harlo..Where are u? ARgG..GOING BACK HOMETOWN AGAIN ??!~!! @#$@#%$ "

My frens alwiz complaining that I every weekend going back hometown. Ermm, actually is 2 weeks once. But recently too miss my daddy mummy, especially my mum's cookin. At hometown, can meet my ht's frens, watch AstrO, sleep on my lovely bED, hugGin my doGgie, cHitchaT-ing with daddy mummy, sharing secrets with my Sis..Wow..so nice, whole weekend! U see, I don find any reason that can stop myself going back ht. AnywaY, if I stay here, I still can find lots Fun like hangin out with JL n NO need to do housechores. Eikeikeik !

Situation 5: "Cy ar..Don worry. No need study larr..Ur resUlt so gooD! 4 flat ler..So hardworking..Fuiyo."

4 FLAT? I hope so lar..But I can't achiev that high since I don hAv a brilliant brain n NonStop studying motivation like my ex-housemate 'Engineerin GOd' ! I'm lazY in fact as I onli study when the exam is around the corner. N now my result are below 3.5 ..*sad* So my dear frens, after read this, plz don say i'm 4 flat student and hardworkin.I'm NOt wor.. >.<" -sigh-

Situation 6: "Cy ar..Y I never see U wearing Skirt?

There are many personal reasons I don wear skirt. The main reason is I will feel weird n awkward if I wear skirt. Somemore, I'm too short n quite so chai if wearin skirt. N i'm not thiN n don hav fair n fine legs. SO..in conclusion, I scare to wear skirt! wahahaha..

Situation 7: "Cy, sometime U mayb too care some ppl until others will misunderstood. This is actually is ur good or bad?"

'TOO care'..Hmm..I think i treat everyone the same wor..Not argh? I treat some quite bad also..wahaha..Erm, I don think there is any problem if I care somebody. I jz treat everyone as my frens. So if U asking whether this is my good or bad? I can say that I did the right thing -^.^-

Situation 8: "Cy ar,U hav how many gal frens ah?Y I onli can see most of ur frens are guys? U don hav gal fren ah?"

Nonono!! JL not gal mer? n also Summer and Kate! haiyoo.. Somemore my best frens are GALS ler..Aychyun n AyShiang. I always hangin out with guys n JL..becoz my housemate all guys mah..not included JL lah..Yeah, I admit that I hav few gal frens. It is jz becoz I donno how to mix with gals? >.<" Okay, I donno the reason Y! ..Tell me if u know.

Situation 9: "Cy..hahaha...Ur voice like CHILD! haha" -slap forehead-

Oh my god! Many of my frens told me this when we are havin conversation in the phone. I still remember last time during alpha years, We were presenting a drama.We need to record each of our 'dui bak' when practice so we no need mic during drama presentation. So after the record session, we playback. SHiEt! when reach the part I speak, all of my groupMates ROFL!! I was like shocked becoz I onli can listen a child voice instead of my real voice! HUgh..This is my VOICE?? -blushed-

Situation 10: "Cy, U looked pale !"

HMm..this words keep repeatin from all my frens i met this 2 weeks. M i really looked pale? I donno. They asked me whether I was sick.. NO wor.. But don worry, make me BLUSHed lo..haha..

OKAy!..How u think? >.<"

..To SomEone I miSs A loT..

爱你的那份认真你感觉到了吗？
想你的那份思念你收到了吗？
所有的真心、認真、思念都是因为你
你有一颗让我难懂的心
对我而言是个解不开的谜

等待也许是最美丽的结果，所以愿意等待
你可以试着回头看，我依旧站在原地等你

你无需将我定位于任何角色，
当你伤心时我是安慰者
当你失意时我可以是加油者
当你快乐是我是祝福者
而当你想我时我会是感动者

生命中有不计其数的人与我们擦身而过
能有几个人介入我们的心底
失去错过一个人很容易
要得到真心的人却很难倾听真诚
珍惜身边的人
可能幸福就在你身边

或许恋一个人永远没有结果，
但是心灵感应动心
却是真实无疑
爱是没有错，没有结果的爱情也没有错
错只错，命运捉弄时不予我吧

你的心就像风飘浮不定让我捉摸不定
我的心却像云随着你的风向四处飘流
我多么希望我们的新能互相融合 风停云静 不在飘荡 相互依偎

爱情就想走迷宫一样
不一定能顺利地走出来
有时也要碰碰运气
结果不一定美好
只要不要忘记就是努力过

我知道爱一个人要先学会心碎，
我必须要有足够的勇气去面对一个伤心
去包容我自己的爱情
因为对方是你
我才有勇气和心思去碰触爱情

每个人对于感情的见解有所不同
我只相信要择其所爱，爱其所择，用真心就对了

用心體會愛你的那份真心你體會到了嗎？